Dear Girls.

My Dearest girls,

Your actions over the last few weeks have kept me going.  Your smiles, your laughs, even your tears.  They have brought me back to reality often and pulled me away from the simplicity and monotony of auto-pilot. 

The trek up the proverbial mountain has been a long one and we're not quite to the top yet.  Tonight, I remember we are on our way to the top.  Tonight I am remembering to turn around and look at how far we've come, not focus on how much farther we have to go.  Sure, there are a few ruts and intentions in the mud where we've slid a little but there are so many more footsteps up than there are places we've fallen or slipped down.  There are times where there are four sets of footprints, sometimes two, sometimes just one.  The LORD has blessed us with each other and such amazing family and friends.  

I hope we are all able to look back on this crazy time and realize just how much we're growing during this time.  How strong we have gotten and are getting.  I pray that you both realize that your daddy and I have leaned on the Lord, more and more over the last few months and despite the trials we are clinging tight to Him.  I pray your hearts continue to grow closer to Him with every step we take.

Forever & Always,

Mommy  

Dearest Teagan

Dearest Teagan,
My Sweet Little Bear, these last few weeks have been kind of rough on you.  I was gone for 4 days then we left for a very long road trip to Vermont and we threw your schedule all out of sorts.  Then the week after we got back you got bit at school, pretty hard, twice.  Your world hasn't quite gone back to normal yet.  Since we got back the only time you'll leave my side without protest is at school.  I'm not sure if you are still getting back into a comfortable place, if you are afraid I will leave you for a few days again or if you are really starting to sense whats coming in two months. 
Some things are going to change.  Things I have no power over.  I am going to get more and more tired as these 2 months progress.  So far I think I have been pretty good at not letting this effect how I play or interact with you.  I usually wait to crash after you've gone to bed.  This might change a little but as the weather gets cooler I hope it won't change too much.  My belly is only going to continue to get bigger.  Mommy isn't very tall so Baby Bear has nowhere to go but out!  That means sitting in my lap is going to get a little more difficult.  Just because my belly is getting bigger does not mean there isn't room for you anymore.  It just means we wil have to make some adjustments.  You might just have to sit on the side of my lap instead of the middle.  We will make it work though Kiddo, I promise. 
I just want you to know that your daddy and I will do everything in our power to make sure you don't get lost in the shuffle.  I hope you will never question the fact that we love you.  There will never be a time in your life where we won't love you and try to show it to the best of our ability.  Remember that always. 

Forever & Always,
Mommy